Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Stripping Away our Self-Righteousness


3rd Sunday in Lent: Luke 13:1-9

Flannery O’Connor, the esteemed Southern writer of the 1940s and 50s, wrote a short story titled Revelation about a rather rude old lady named Mrs. Turpin.  The story is set a doctor’s office where Mrs. Turpin finds herself among a few others which gives her a chance to reflect upon her life.  She enters, with no place to sit, and from her point of view because a dirty nasty child is taking up too much room on the sofa.  Mrs. Turpin is not a particularly pleasant woman, but she sure does love Jesus.   Mrs. Turpin seems to spend a lot of time looking at others in pity and disdain.  She sings the song, “When I looked up and He looked down, And wona these days I know I we-eara crown.”[1] 

Often, at night Mrs. Turpin would imagine herself before Jesus, being forced to be someone she wouldn’t want to be.  “Oh thank you Jesus that I am not white-trash.”  Every imagination makes her only more self-righteous, more thankful she is the person she is, not common, not even just a homeowner, but a home-and-land owner.  She thanks Jesus that she is not ugly.  

Mrs. Turpin begins to engage in conversations with the people in the doctor’s office.  Each person she engages with she sees as where they rank in the different classes in society and finds ways of smugly putting each person down.  Finally the conversation turns to a mother with her young child of 18 or 19 years old, named Mary Grace, who is reading a book titled “Human Development.”  The young girl has no interest in a conversation with Mrs. Turpin and her mother points out how ungrateful the girl is and of course Mrs. Turpin responds by letting everyone know just how fortunate in life she has always been.  At that point she yells, “Thank you, Jesus, for making everything the way it is!”
Mary Grace picks up the book and hurls it across the room smacking Mrs. Turpin directly over her right eye.  As the room settles down, Mrs. Turpin responds, “What you got to say to me?” and O’ Connor writes, “she asked hoarsely and held and held her breath, waiting, as for a revelation.  The girl raised her head.  Her gaze locked with Mrs. Turpin’s. ‘Go back to hell where you came from, you old wart hog.” 

It takes a little while, but the words sink in.  She cries, and then she becomes consumed with rage.  But a woman as self-righteous as Mrs. Turpin has no other option but to see the words as a divine revelation.  She demands that God calls her a hog again, and at that moment she has a vision, one that ends with her seeing herself as the lowest of low, the last in a glorious procession behind all of the people she has been so grateful to not be. 

I sometimes feel like Lent is similar to being smacked upside the head with Mary Grace’s book, forcing us to face the realities of who we are at the core of our being, ultimately as a catalyst for growth. O’Connor’s character is a dramatic exaggeration of smaller truths that can be found in all human beings.  I read a cartoon not to long ago that forced me to reflect on how self-righteous I can be.  It is an internet cartoon titled Coffee with Jesus.[2]  
           
            Kevin:  “The car goes racing past me on the highway, swerving from lane to lane- and get this! It had a bumper sticker for the local Christian radio station!
            Jesus: “What a shame.”
            Kevin: “No joke! If you’re going to support that vapid station by displaying their sticker you should maybe drive with some courtesy.
            Jesus: “Sorry Kevin.  I meant it’s a shame that you spend your day looking for people to judge so you can feel better about yourself.

When we wander into the desert and really examine who we are, it can be a little bit scary.  Every Lent that I have been faithful in my own self-exploration, I have come to the realization that I have even more work to do.  I keep waiting to hit the threshold where the work becomes less and less, the journey easier, and easier.  I haven’t found it yet.  My gut tells me I may never find it.

Our passage from Luke today assumes two questions.  You can almost hear the Galileans, asking Jesus, of those others who have suffered and died.  They sound just like Mrs. Turpin.  “Thanks be to God nothing happened to us.  Thanks be to God we haven’t been such bad sinners as those others Galileans, or those who stood under the tower of Siloam.  Self-righteous anger fills air.  They remind Jesus of the blood Pilate has mingled with their sacrifices yet Jesus responds, “Do you really think they were worse than you?”  Jesus smacks the Galileans upside the head, “Repent!  You fools!  Nothing has happened to you, not out of your own merit. 

In the O’Connor story, Mrs. Turpin experiences grace through the actions of Mary Grace.  (Could she be a little more obvious with the name?) It is through the realization of who she is that she can experience the grace and freedom of being with God.  It is interesting, what keeps Mrs. Turpin away from truly seeing God is her own failure to recognize her own need for God’s grace.  She is so fortunate that she is better off than all others that she cannot even begin to fathom what life would be like otherwise, and if we are so much better off than others, then how in the world can we begin to understand how God’s grace can transform our own lives. 

My friend Fanny told me the other day “You can’t even begin to share God’s love if you don’t know how to receive it.”  Her simple, yet profound insight has begun to shape my Lent this year.  She in a much nicer way, picked a book chalked full of grace and smacked me right upside the head. 

I think the ultimate flaw of the self-righteousness of the Galileans is in their belief that their own merit has in someway contributed to their present circumstance.   Can I truly understand God’s love if I think there is any merit that has earned it?  Does self-righteousness inhibit me from recognizing God’s unabounding love? 

This Lent, we have moved into the desert.  We get rid of our comforts, we fast, we think, we explore, and we strip our lives down to the bare essentials.  If you are finding this season to be extremely reflective and challenging then you are right where you need to be.  If not, well you still have a good amount of time left before Easter.  When we wander into the wilderness, we can become aware of our own limitations and faults, seeing ourselves where we truly lie in God’s eyes, as beloved children, just as every single person in all of humanity is, not better off, not more blessed, not in a better position, but in desperate need of reconciliation, and God’s love.   If we look around and we truly believe that we need God’s grace just as much as our brothers and sisters, and not in some selfish, conceited way, (it has to be genuine) then we can move into a position and place to share God’s grace with others.   

Self-righteousness moves us away from being able to accept the grace of God because it distances ourselves away from others, inhibiting our ability to share grace with each other.  This Lent, our wilderness journey invites us into a place where we can strip down all of the excess.   Lent makes us take off all the facades, pretences, and fronts we place up and force us to see ourselves as we truly are.  It smacks us upside the head.  For me, it is not as pretty as I want you all to know.  But the hope is that, this self-realization moves me into a place where I can better receive God’s grace based on no merit of my own.  And if we all can move into a place of more truly knowing grace, we will all be in a better place to share it with each other.     

Preached at St. George's Arlington
March 3, 2013

[1] Flannery O’Connor, “Revelation” The Complete Stories (New York:  Farrar, Straus and Giroux, 1971)

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